on having 100 guests

we're having 100 guests, 106 to be exact. it is so hard to create the guest list. honestly, there are times when i wish i can just invite everyone para wala ng hassle and i don't need to explain anymore to some of my friends that our wedding will be small and with just the closest of family and friends. but then again, when i think about it, i realize that this is what i really want - a small, intimate wedding with just my closest friends and relatives.

ever since i was 12, i had birthday parties every year. i usually invited all my classmates. although i had fun during the parties, i would realize after that the party was kind of just a waste of time and money and i would have been just as happy if i did not have a party. the funny thing was, i realized this after every party but come next year, i would again throw another party! parang i never learned from those "mistakes" except now.

for my wedding, i want a really small, intimate gathering. gusto ko lahat ng guests played a special part in my life or in jojie's life. siguro nga for the filipinos, weddings are status symbols, the parents' way of showing off, but this is not how i want my wedding to be.

gusto ko 100 guests lang pero sobrang ganda, yummy food, nice music, great setup, very relaxed atmosphere, very personal. this is also why i'm making the invites, the favors, etc. by myself para sobrang personal talaga.

admittedly, budget constraint is also a major reason why we're having a small wedding. but when i really thought about it, i realized na hindi naman pala ako sobrang nagtitipid. i am so proud nga of myself because i was able to get suppliers na maganda yung track records pero hindi kamahalan. sometimes, nagigi-guilty na rin ako because jojie never told me not to get a certain supplier na gusto ko because of budget constraints. pag alam niya na gusto ko, he gives it to me. so far though, parang hindi pa naman kami lagpas sa budget or baka akala ko lang yun. =)

i usually hear comments that the wedding is a once-in-a-lifetime event and it should be grand and no expense should be spared. i agree, a wedding is a once-in-a-lifetime event and i'll have it the way i want it to be.