need to rest...

i think i'm coming down with something. i've not been feeling well all day. most likely, i'm coming down with the flu. either that or my basal body temperature is really high because of the time of the month. either way, i'm not my usual perky self.

bernard is already home from work and school. my poor baby! he sounded tired when we spoke over the phone. siguro kasi we slept around 3:30 a.m. last night trying to finish our reports.

i realized today that bernard and i are driving ourselves to the limit and we should really, REALLY rest. he is working fulltime (he's a stock market analyst. was ranked as the 3rd best analyst in the power sector last year! i'm so proud of my honey! =)), is attending graduate school (he's taking up master of science in computational finance in la salle), and has two part-time jobs (one is about drawing up a business plan for a chinese couple while the other is editing reports from a singaporean company). ako naman, i'm doing my thesis (i'm taking up master of arts in counseling psych in ateneo) and i have three part-time jobs (i'm a play therapist and a research associate for an ateneo research project, and at the same time, i'm writing another thesis for a client). i also help bernard with the editing for the singaporean company. most of the time, we work nights. okay lang yun for me since i don't have a regular sched pero si bernard has pasok everyday so i'm more worried about him.

so why are we doing this? for one, we need to save up for our life together (not just the wedding). at least siya alam ko yun yung reasons niya. ako? hmmm... since i don't really earn a lot with the jobs that i have, it's more about learning and establishing myself as a psychologist/researcher.

but we enjoy what we do. i think one of the things that has attracted me most to bernard was that i saw how passionate he was as a person. he loves what he does and the things he does, he makes sure he does it right. with my circle of guy friends, wala yatang ganun. or at least wala sa ganung level katulad ng nakikita kong passion ni bernard sa mga ginagawa niya.

i think what we're doing is just okay. siguro lang we need to manage our time more effectively para hindi kami magkasakit. on the other hand, this is a surefire way na papayat ako before my fitting in july! mwahahaha! a bride daw kasi has to be pretty and thin. with the things i'm doing, ha! i'll be thin! pero hindi pretty! nye! i'd rather be fat basta pretty. (ay ang layo ko na sa topic!)

so anyway, starting tomorrow, i resolve to manage my time more effectively so i do not get sick. i also promise to take vitamins everyday. for now, though, i'll just get my much-needed sleep.